Heaven is for healing
Suicidal tendencies came from an early chemical imbalance
I feel at peace to die. That's the most important for the last part of the journey.
Not resisting death & let go
Wordless feeling
Life is nonstop constant burnout! I went to A&E, years apart for suicidal idealation. Both give MC of 3 days only Can't possibly be well for resting 3 days Fear, rumination & overthinking makes me depressed & anxious. I hope those malfunctional thinking patterns could be spotted earlier on by professionals & be tackled with. Low self confidence also played a role. Mental healthcare is expensive and not as efficient. It takes too much time & doesnt come up with anything useful. Or I have been to IMH & they insisted me to go group therapy whereas I said no. They only insisted of me of going on. I didn't know I was fearful of people because I'm used to be invisible & didn't wanted to interact with anyone as I think they will criticise me. This made treatment difficult as treatment doesn't fit. I only had no words to describe my pain as I have been a quiet person. I didn't wanna complain. I didn't knew how I feel. Or they simply di...
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